w.o.w

Phewwwww I know I know, I havn't blogged in a year..can we say WOWZERS!I feel like there are cobwebs on my blog, nd it needs to be dusted away L☺L. Anywhuu a LOT has happened in my life dis past year, good and bad, but guess wat? I'm still alive still standin nd still thankin God!My life is kinda excitin right bout nw:)ima try to keep yll updated on stuff cuz I hve really missed yll. So seat bk, relax and watch dis space.. I can't shout dats all ima say for nw L☺L. God is AWES0ME.

Just for fun!!!!

Hey y'll ...sowwwy i hvnt updated in a min. My wireless internet has been actin up and @ the moment i really dnt have anything to write about. But i was bored and went to Buttercups blog. Found something interesting so i decided to do mine. (Even though i wasn't tagged... *lowers eyebrows@ b'cup* lolll..jus kiddin). Well im sure she won't mind..i mean heck im bored jo..so enjoy hehehe...



Here are the rules:

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.*They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.*You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.* Dont google ur answers.*Make it as interesting and fun as you can.





1. What is your name: Shantell

2. A four Letter Word: Snot

3.A boy's Name: Sean

4 A girl's Name: Shanice

5.An occupation: Stripper:LOL

6:A Color: Sea blue. errrrrr

7: Something u will wear: Shirt

8: a food: Spaghetti

9 : Something found in the bathroom: Soap

10: A place: St.Louis

11: Something you'd shout: Shut yo mouth

12:A movie title: Sweet Novemeber

13:Something you drink: Sex on the beach

14: A musical group: sensations (lol)

15:An animal: Snake?? lol

16:A street name: Saddle street

17:A type of car: Santana LOL
Well dats all for now folks...

I pledge to tell the truth , the whole truth and nuthin but the truth...

My girl buttercup tagged me to the honesty scrap thingy, so i guess i ain't go no choice but to do mine. lol. Oh boy here it goes...

1. I am at a low point in my life right now.. my life is @ a stand still... it's so depressing. I am done with school but the recession has made it so hard to get a job. The economy is down the toilet, but thnk God for Obama there's still HOPE *crosses fingers*.

2.My sleep cycle is so messed up. I go to bed @ 5.am or sometimes 6 am in the morning either deep in thoughts ,watching movies , studying for my LSAT or basically doin NOTHING! & it ain't even like i sleep during the day..SMH!

3.I am nice and VERY friendly : Oh no don't take me for granted, because the green eyed monster will definitely creep out.

4.I def wanna learn how to work the pole.. Yes! and wen i get married i am gonna have a pole in my bedroom... *WINK* lol...

5.I can be VERY playful, but i know when to stay FOCUSED.

6.I LOVE to eat more than i love to cook.. Hey don't get it twisted i can definitely throw it down in the kitchen, u better ask somebody!!! lol..

7.I am a hopeless romantic...I believe in fairy tales lol.. i get all mushy inside with the thought of candle light dinners nd stuff. When i am in a relationship,I love when a guy steals little kisses here and there catching me by surprise. I love when he whispers things into my ear & it doesn't havta be nasty things either. I like being tickled. I love pillow fights. Dang I miss all those things.:(

8.I am a shopaholic: when i walk into a store, i go to the shoe section first. Im CRAzzzzZY about shoes.

9.If i don't like you i'll tell u.. i can't pretend . sorry.

10.I could be a BITCH when I am on my period.. Yes don't test me. Thank God for Midol it calms me down a lot.

11.I work out a lot... I hve bn to the gym EVERYDAY for almost 2 mnths nw.. Ok truth is, i use exercise as a shield to help me get over stuff bothering me.

12.I MISS my ex and still LOVE him very much!.. April 4th woulda actually been our 2nd yr anniversary. It's been 4 mnths since we broke up and it still seems so surreal *chokes*. I miss his kisses, i miss the early mornin text msgs, i miss his laugh, i miss his jokes, I miss when we both fall asleep on d fone after we tlk for hours lol. I miss the silly fights & above all i miss my bestfriend.I had so much fun being wit him for the period of time we were together. It was great but im just disappointed he made the distance affect us. Im glad we still cooool tho.

13.I love my eyes and booty. But i like my booty best hehe.. yes i hve a BIG badunkadunk & i love to flaunt it. Like Beyonce said "If u got it flaunt it boy i kno u want it" *WINK* hehee.

14.I am a VERY SHY person .. A lotta people don't believe me tho lolol..

15.I find it very SEXY when a guy gets jealous ova me, esp when there's really nothing to be jealous about. I mean its okay to get jealous but don't get too jealous as in all psycho nd shitt...nw dats a total TURNOFF.

16.I havn't bn bk home in 6 years... i really need to go bk to Nija.


17.I am officially a fan of Buttercup and Chari . There's just something i find genuinely cute & interesting about them. I remember when i first came across their blog thnx to h20, i read their story nd i ws like oh dang i ain't goin bk to dat site cuz it brought bk a lotta memories lol. It was like de javu. Anywyaz i returned to y'll's blog like 2 wks after nd i gt really hooked. hehehe.. yll are toooo freakin cuuute nd im rooting for u ;). Love is a beautiful thing.

Oh and Thnx Bcup for the award.. I had mad fun :D lol.

I tag anyone who feels like doing this ish..it's fun:)

Love/ Genotype.

Okay guys, I watched a Nigerian movie the other day titled "Loosing you" Starring cutie Van Vicker and Tonto Dikeh. I ain't really been a huge fan of Nigerian movies now adays cuz most of them don't make any sense lol. But I liked this one cuz it made me think..lol.. Sad movie, but pretty good.

Anywayz, the movie is about two lovers who planned on getting married but discovered they both had the same AS genotype. They were both devastated like crazy. Their parents told them to call off the relationship, but it obviously wasn't easy. They eventually decided to see other people, but that didn't work out cuz they cldnt just let go of each other. They both decided to stay together regardless of what people said. They put their love first.

The whole thing just made me stop to think like wow a lot of us get into relationships and forget to talk about issues like this, especially when it gets so serious. I know most of us get to talk about marriage and stuff with our partners, but we get caught up and we don't even think about if our genotypes matches with our partners or not.

I did a little bit of research online and a lotta people talked about how they broke up with their partners just cuz they found out they were both AS. Some had even been with their partners for as long as 7 years or more and it was pretty hard to walk away from the relationship just like that.

Some said it would be selfish to bring a sick child into the world all in the name of love . But the sickle cell thingy is actually 1 in 4 chances (if u are both AS). I really don't know how i wld feel if i were in this particular situation.

Will i stay or will i go? hmmm i honestly cannot answer that. I wanna have healthy babies, but will i be able to walk out on the love of my life?. I think i'll just tell my man we should adopt. Its hard walking away from a relationship , especially if yll are in love and have been together for soo loong.

Anywhuu, If you go ahead and get married, will you be ready to handle whatever comes ur way?. I have seen what some parents go thru when they have an SS child and we all know how crazy that is.

So what will you do if u and ur partner are both AS? Will you stay or wld you walk away? or will yll just stay together and adopt children so as not to risk having an SS child?

I don't even pray to be in this kinda situation. I don't even know my genotype. I know i ain't SS tho. The only people that really have nothing to worry about are the people with the AA genotype, cuz they can pretty much marry anybody.

Self Preservation.....(relationship wise).

I have heard a lot of people say "I'm in a self-preservation state" meaning that they are not yet ready to get into a relationship & even if they do get into one, they don't want to put their all in the next relationship, for the fear of being hurt again.

The self preservation thingy usually happens when a person who has been hurt doesn't want to get hurt again. Therefore, in their next relationship they try to play it "safe" or "protect themselves by making sure they don't fall in love or maybe commit to any sort of emotional relationship.

After my recent break up, I told myself I wasn't gonna love or trust again. I also said I wasn't gonna be so into my next relationship so that I won't get hurt again. I still feel that way but I have come to realize that you cannot help/control who you fall in love with. Love is like a magical force that is impossible to control.

For me, I decided to remain single right now cuz I ain't fully over my past relationship. I need to be able to get over the fear of being hurt again before I get the courage to love the next time. I don't wanna be in a situation where by im with someone and at the back of my mind im scared of getting hurt.

I honestly dunno when ima be over the fear of getting hurt, but I do knw that in future,I want to be able to love with all my might without being afraid. I want to be in a situation where by I am fully into the relationship without holding anything back. I want to be able to look into his eyes and trust that he will never hurt me. I dunno if that sounds kinda fairytalish(lol) but dats how I feel. I am working towards being strong again:).

Its very hard to trust or love again when you've been hurt before, but I guess everyone in life deserves a second chance. The next one might just be the RIGHT one who knows.

I think if we don't get some kinda closure with the person who caused us pain, we will be afraid of getting hurt in the same way in the next relationship. When we finally get that closure, then I guess it makes it a lil easier to move forward.

Does it matter?

A couple of weeks back, my cousin and I had a conversation about issues surrounding dating and marriage.My cousin's boy friend ain't Nigerian but he is from one of the countries in West Africa. They've been dating for quite sometime now and they talkin marriage already lol. But anywyaz, I remember when the whole dating thing started and her parents got to find out he wasn't Nigerian, twas a problem but she stood her ground and said if he is the ONE, then she is gonna go ahead and marry him. Which brings me to the question... would you marry/date outside your culture/race or whatever the case may be.
I was kinda surprised her parents would trip about somethin like that tho. It ain't even asif she's dating outside her race really...I mean yea he ain't Nigerian but he is African too and i'm very sure our cultures ain't that different from each other.
Some African parents are in the habit of forcing their kids to marry from the same ethnicity.

Personally, I don't mind dating or marrying outside my race, matter of fact I hate the whole mentality about forcing someone to date/marry from the same race and stuff. I find it to be very shallow. I like trying new things. I like learning about other people's culture. I like variety. I have dated outside my race and I have also dated my people..I think @ the end of the day it all boils down to love and whoever makes you happy.

My parents tell me (well my mom specifically) says they don't care what ethnicity I'm with as long as I'm happy. Although I have heard them say they prefer if whoever we (my siblings) decide to be with in the end is Nigerian.. lol

So what do y'll think? Would you ever date/ marry outside your race or ethnic background? Why or why not.

My Confessions.....

Every time I was in L.A i was with my ex-boyfriend...lolol.. jus kiddin ..ok nw seriously..

I confess nothing scares me more than Failure, that's why I try my best to give my all in everything I do.

I confess I am slacking big time. I feel I have really drifted away from God. I need to move closer to him. I am working on it I promise.

I confess I ain't really over someone, even though I tell my self everyday that I am.

I confess I panic too damn much esp when i think about my future. I admit it gets scary sometimes. I think it gets scary cuz of the real world challenges I have to face on my own, without mommy or daddy being around lol.. well I feel like my life is movin too fast lol but I thank God and appreciate what he has done for me so far. I just think i need to calm down and take things one step @ a time. I know i'll be fine though:)

I confess I'll rather sit home on a Friday night and watch movies with a bowl of popcorn than go clubbing. Its always bn that way.lol... I go clubbing once in a blue moon or sometimes I get forced to.

I confess I like gist too much lol..i mean who doesn't? lolol

I confess I am drinkin as I am typin this haha! mind u its 5:17 am WHOA! ok ok its just Arbor mist so it ain't dat serious lol.

I confess I feel mad sleepy so ima continue later today. Nite nite y'll or shuld I say good
morning? lol *yawwwwwwwwn*

update:
I confess thinkin bout law skool gives me hives lol.

I confess I wish there was nothing like school uugh!

I confess I wish I ws a boy SOMETIMES... lol...so I won't hve to deal with cramps nd ish...nd so I cn break a lotta hearts too...lol.. nosaaa jus kiddin..lol

I hve many more to make..so watch out for part 2.